Friday, March 27, 2009

Lead Me Lord I'll Follow

I am getting to the point where I have less and less optimism about medical school. Last night I prayed for direction. I don't know what else to do to give me that little extra push to get me accepted. It is so frustrating and the thought of having to apply again and go through another year of this makes me sick- literally, my stomach starts to cramp up. Then at about 2 o'clock this morning, I woke up with "Daystar" in my head. I haven't heard that song in forever, and to be honest, I was never really a big fan of it. But the words are perfect and I'm making it my prayer.

"Lead me Lord, I'll follow Anywhere You open up the door.
Let me know Your wisdom. Show me things I've never seen before.
Lord, I want to be Your witness. You can take what's wrong and make it right.
Daystar shine down on me Let Your love shine through me in the night."

That embodies exactly what I need and long for. I want Him to lead me in the direction I'm supposed to be going. I want to know His plan for this part of my life. If I'm not meant to be in school right now, somehow let me know so that I can have peace with it. And through it all, I want to give glory to His name. All that I have accomplished so far, and all that I will accomplish, will be through Him and I want to be a walking billboard for God's glory. So I continue to pray, hoping God will speak to me and give me a glimpse into his plan.